I’m 30. I've made a list of 30 things I want to accomplish before I am 40. I had a list in my head of things that I wanted to do before I turned the big 3-0. I met only about half of those goals. So, either I was a slacker or just didn’t have the resources to reach them. Now I have no excuse. They have been written (although not in stone) and must be achieved!
1) Build my dream home. My OCD and decorating skills are yearning to be utilized in this way. A whole house from scratch, just the way I want it. Can’t wait!
2) Have lots of babies. Okay, not lots, but at least one. I’m not getting any younger.
3) See the Northern Lights. Who wouldn’t want to do that?
4) Open my own Bookstore/Decorating/Organizing business. See my blog Big Dreams.
5) Swim with dolphins.
6) Visit the 10 most romantic U.S. cities according to Yahoo!. Las Vegas and Miami…check. Honolulu, Charleston, San Francisco, New Orleans, Santa Fe, San Diego, San Antonio, and New York to go.
7) Visit the Louvre.
8) Be a member of the audience of a TV show (SNL, David Letterman, Oprah)
9) Visit Ireland and Italy.
10) Achieve my ideal weight…1xx. Did you actually think I was going to tell you?
11) Have a vacation home in the mountains.
12) Drive along Route 66 in an RV. This one probably won’t happen until we’re retired, but I can hope!
13) Purchase a really, really expensive purse. I’m thinking Coach…the Madison Embossed Exotic. This will happen soon. I’m obsessed.
14) Earn the salary that I know I am worth.
15) Fly first class. This can easily be accomplished with my Air Tran A+ Rewards card. But, I just need the time (and money) to go somewhere.
16) Attend a movie premiere.
17) Invent something. I’ve been trying to think of a way to let Maggie out from the 2nd floor of our house…a doggy elevator type thing.
18) Get my Masters degree.
19) Volunteer. I don’t do it. I need to.
20) Spend New Year’s Eve at Times Square.
21) Ride in a hot air balloon. Even though I am terrified of heights, I am willing to suck it up. I know the view would be amazing.
22) See a Broadway play in New York.
23) Go a year without coloring my hair. Maybe at 39 I’ll do that. I’m curious to whether I will have any gray hair by then.
24) Play Heart and Soul on the piano.
25) See Josh Groban in concert.
26) Own a Chevy Malibu. This may happen sooner than later if I get a job closer to home!
27) Go on another cruise…anywhere but the Bahamas.
28) Delete my facebook account. Another thing that I am obsessed with. Sometimes it seems that I spend more time with it than I do Matt.
29) Learn to sew. My mother in law made curtains for my dining room. I want to be able to do that for the rest of my house.
30) Continue blogging. It’s very therapeutic and so much fun.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Me Previously Part 2
By my 21st birthday I was way too tanned for February, blonder than I had ever been, and I was depressed. My heart was broken. My mom was sick. Murray State was gett
ing the best of me. My life was unraveling before my eyes. I was homesick more than ever. A year later mom had passed. I grew apart from my dad and sister. I was needy, lonely and so in denial that I that I felt like mom had just left us. For the longest time I thought that I would see her walking though the mall or passing by in a car. But, that’s another story for another time.
The next 5 years I spent in a daze. I was in a relationship that was never going to work. So I married him. It didn’t last too long. I left him April 1, 2007 and was divorced shortly after. That’s all I have to say about that.
At 27 I started over. I was scared, embarrassed, and unemployed. After a very short stay with my grandma, I gathered what little stuff I took from Kentucky and made a new home in Westville with Niki and Trevor. That summer I reconnected with my sister whom I had missed so much. I lost 25 pounds, got a job and started dating. It was exciting. I became myself again, but much more vocal. After a miserable 5 years I finally felt free and words just flowed from my mouth. I spent the summer of 2007 just talking. For so long I had all these thoughts and feelings bottled up inside of me. I had secrets that I never thought I would tell anyone, but I did that summer. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could breathe again.
November 11, 2007 is really the day that I started over…well, my love life started over at least. Matt very unexpectedly came into my life. From that day forward I knew that life for me would be sweet again and I haven’t looked back. Again, that’s another story for another time.
2008 brought new experiences and more love than I had felt in a long time. My family was in my life again and Matt’s family welcomed me into theirs with open arms. In September Matt’s sister got married. I caught the bouquet and on November 15, 2008 he proposed. I wasn’t too surprised; I did catch the bouquet. The rest of the year I spent anxiously planning every significant and minuscule detail of the ceremony and reception.
2009 brought out the OCD in me, but also allowed me to utilize my self professed interior
decorating and organizational skills. On June 27th we were married and the OCD didn’t go away. We moved into our home on August 1st and luckily the house wasn’t (still isn’t) completely done so I was still able to make use of my design “expertise”. Miss Maggie, our Boston Terrier came into our lives Labor Day weekend. Life has been…um, should I say more exciting
since then. She’s the only baby I have right now so she gets treated as such. She’s spoiled. The end of 2009 introduced us to Miss Aubrey to us. She is the most astonishingly beautiful niece an Auntie could ever hope to have. I love her dearly and plan on spoiling her rotten as well.
This year has been tough and not only because I have come to what I consider reasonably scary age. In April I lost my grandmother. Seeing her pass brought back memories of my mom. It was very difficult for me to handle, but I made it though. In June I was diagnosed with Diabetes. In July I was 0 for 5 in job interviews. It is my hope that the remainder of my second 29th year will be in my favor.
ing the best of me. My life was unraveling before my eyes. I was homesick more than ever. A year later mom had passed. I grew apart from my dad and sister. I was needy, lonely and so in denial that I that I felt like mom had just left us. For the longest time I thought that I would see her walking though the mall or passing by in a car. But, that’s another story for another time.The next 5 years I spent in a daze. I was in a relationship that was never going to work. So I married him. It didn’t last too long. I left him April 1, 2007 and was divorced shortly after. That’s all I have to say about that.
At 27 I started over. I was scared, embarrassed, and unemployed. After a very short stay with my grandma, I gathered what little stuff I took from Kentucky and made a new home in Westville with Niki and Trevor. That summer I reconnected with my sister whom I had missed so much. I lost 25 pounds, got a job and started dating. It was exciting. I became myself again, but much more vocal. After a miserable 5 years I finally felt free and words just flowed from my mouth. I spent the summer of 2007 just talking. For so long I had all these thoughts and feelings bottled up inside of me. I had secrets that I never thought I would tell anyone, but I did that summer. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I could breathe again.
November 11, 2007 is really the day that I started over…well, my love life started over at least. Matt very unexpectedly came into my life. From that day forward I knew that life for me would be sweet again and I haven’t looked back. Again, that’s another story for another time.
2008 brought new experiences and more love than I had felt in a long time. My family was in my life again and Matt’s family welcomed me into theirs with open arms. In September Matt’s sister got married. I caught the bouquet and on November 15, 2008 he proposed. I wasn’t too surprised; I did catch the bouquet. The rest of the year I spent anxiously planning every significant and minuscule detail of the ceremony and reception.
2009 brought out the OCD in me, but also allowed me to utilize my self professed interior
decorating and organizational skills. On June 27th we were married and the OCD didn’t go away. We moved into our home on August 1st and luckily the house wasn’t (still isn’t) completely done so I was still able to make use of my design “expertise”. Miss Maggie, our Boston Terrier came into our lives Labor Day weekend. Life has been…um, should I say more exciting
since then. She’s the only baby I have right now so she gets treated as such. She’s spoiled. The end of 2009 introduced us to Miss Aubrey to us. She is the most astonishingly beautiful niece an Auntie could ever hope to have. I love her dearly and plan on spoiling her rotten as well.
This year has been tough and not only because I have come to what I consider reasonably scary age. In April I lost my grandmother. Seeing her pass brought back memories of my mom. It was very difficult for me to handle, but I made it though. In June I was diagnosed with Diabetes. In July I was 0 for 5 in job interviews. It is my hope that the remainder of my second 29th year will be in my favor.
There are more things in life that I know nothing about than things I know for sure. I know nothing about rocket science or how a tractor runs or why I can't remember the last thing I said to my mother before she died. I do know that I will spend more time in Southern Illinois and less time stressing over the unimportant things in life. I will be thankful that I am alive and love my husband a little more everyday. I will live my life to please only myself. I will contiune to exist.
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